A Letter To Little.

Dear Baby,

While daddy and I eagerly await your arrival, there are precious moments I know I am going to miss. Right now, I can be selfish without someone accusing me of being so. I have no way to share you, though I do alert daddy when you are kicking and moving so he can feel you too. However, one day soon, I will no longer feel your kicks, punches, rolls, and hiccups from the inside. I know I will miss this closeness that I have with you, but at the same time I know there will be so many more precious moments that we will share. Even still, I cannot help but think about the things I will miss once you are born.

I will miss the morning wake-up kicks before I get out of bed- its our quiet time together. It makes me wonder if you will love morning cuddle time just like your daddy.

I will miss those soft punches that sometimes cause my leg to stumble- I know you don't mean to cause me to stumble, and you're just saying hello and stretching out.

I will miss rubbing your booty and back when you press it hard against my belly. Or feeling your elbow and foot pressed against my side. I pretend it's you saying "hey mom, here I am."

I will miss your hiccups after I eat something yummy. It's as if you enjoyed the meal as much as I did.

I will miss knowing that I can protect you from anything, safe inside my belly, and I'm the only one that can do that.

I will miss the black and white ultrasound images of you moving around or peacefully sleeping. I know I have pictures to remember these events by, but there is something special about seeing you for the first time, watching you move for the first time, and hearing your heartbeat from the inside. I remember being so amazed seeing you at barely 6 weeks, just a speck on the screen, and then months later when you were fully formed with a round belly and kissable lips. These moments were remarkable and I will neve forget how I felt each time.

I know missing all of these things means that I will have you in my arms, which will be an even better feeling, but I will have to share you, too. Daddy will want to hold you, and there are plenty of people in our lives who will want to love on you too! That's a good thing... but for now, I will enjoy being selfish and continue to cherish our moments together until you decide you're ready to make your big debut. I can't wait to meet you, and kiss your face for the very first time. It's almost your birthday, little one, and its going to be the best day of my life.

Love, Mommy

P.S. Please come out with a nametag as I have no idea what we are naming you.

ready to be done.

WOW... I can't believe how quickly the days have passed. I remember being about 12 weeks and my friend Nicole telling me that I would get to the end of my pregnancy and wonder where the time has gone. Well, she was right, where has the time gone? I can't believe I will have an outside baby in less than a month! How do I feel?

1. Exhausted. Growing a baby is hard work. I never realized how long 9 months really is.
2. Stretched. Skin really is elastic.
3. Excited. I cannot wait to meet this baby. I cannot wait to see Skylers face the first time he holds her.
4. Irritated. Honestly, the end is the worst part of this waiting game. 3 weeks feels like an ETERNITY.
5. Prepared. I have spent the last nine months reading and stockpiling. We have everything we need and more.
Oh, and I should add hungry to the list, because apparently baby is going through a growth spurt (again) and I cant fill my gut enough.

I feel like this is one of those "just add water" situations. We have everything we need, now just have to put the baby in it! Still havent decided on a name. I keep having this daydream of them handing me my baby and me saying "happy birthday whatever your name is!!" (because I imagine I would tell her happy birthday, but who knows) We have already made it this far without a name, that we have both decided to take a favorite name list with us to the hospital and see what she looks like when she comes out. (hopefully cute as pie).

As lovely of an experience as this has been, im ready to be done. Baby, let this be heard, you have two more weeks to bake and im officially evicting you. 39 weeks is plenty of time to put on that baby fat and youre done. All this "40 week" nonsense is ridic. You dont need one extra week to put on 3 more pounds because remember, I HAVE TO PUSH YOU OUT. I refuse, repeat, refuse, to push out anything over 8(ish) pounds. I have a growing list of things that I would like to have or have happen after she is out of me.

1. Drink an extremely large sugar free redbull. Feel free to bring one to the hospital for me, anyone who is reading this. I hope its really cold and tastes as delicious and mouth tingling as I remember.
2. Sleep on my stomach. or my back. Heck, ill do both in one night, flip flopping back and forth repeatedly because ILL BE ABLE TO DO THAT without a large belly. SHRIEK.
3. Have a really cold beer. or two. Preferably draft but im not going to argue about it.
4. Coffee in the morning. I have spent the last 9 months worth of mornings smelling the delicious coffee that Skyler makes in the morning. If I was a bitch I would have pretended that coffee made me morning sick and told him he couldnt make it *just because I was so jealous everytime he had a cup* sigh. im such a good wife.
5. Have a large turkey sandwich. Although in the back of my mind I think this listeria nonsense is a load of crock.
6. Getting my body back. I miss my flat stomach and a lower number when I step on the scale.

Thats all I can think of for now, but im sure there are more things that my pregnancy brain is preventing me from thinking of right now.
I feel like since this is sort of a listing post maybe I should add one more thing.

THINGS I STRONGLY DISLIKE ABOUT BEING PREGNANT



1. Everything is fragile. You have to be so CAREFUL. all the time. DONT DO THAT YOURE PREGNANT. I can't even go outside for more than 5 minutes, per drs orders.

2. Sleep positioning. Right side or left side... not enough options.

3. Having to pee every 10 minutes and YES I HAVE TO PEE AGAIN IM PREGNANT STOP JUDGING ME

4. Everyone giving me their baby "advice". so. annoying. it seems like every time I give my input about something, someone is saying to me "oh wait until that baby gets here you will have a big wake up call" HELLO I wasnt born yesterday, I got it, babies are hard, yada yada yada. I think we can handle it.

5. My body is not mine. Its currently on loan to an alien inside, take a number.

I weigh 152 POUNDS. SCREAM.

the end.

Nobody warned me about these aches and pains.

hello again! lots going on in the baby department. for one, we should start out with a photo...i dont think i look as pregnant as a feel. But i guess thats a good thing?

excuse the mess of hair on my head... if you were 29 weeks pregnant and wrestling dogs during 8 hour work days you would careless also.

She's definately in there, as you can see. Kicking like a maniac and asking me for chocolate frozen yogurt every 10 minutes. "mommy i dont want CARROTS i want CHOCOLATE!" and i think "well ok, if you INSIST, ill take a LARGE. with sprinkles." which may be the reason why i feel like i have gained 100 pounds, although i have only gained 13. At first i was like HOLY CRAP 13 POUNDS? THIRTEEN? THIRTEEN POUNDS? THATS MORE THAN I HAVE EVER WEIGHED IN MY LIFE.

But then i realized that most women at this point would have gained at least 20 so im feeling better about it. Its ok i have an after baby plan- TIGHTEN IT UPPP. (i do however, sometimes turn to skyler and say IS MY CHIN WADDLING? IS MY ARM FLAPPING?)... just to be sure.

SIGH. so nobody ever told me about the aches and PAINS involved in pregnancy. I was expecting all this vag pain to come AFTER i push the baby out. So the first morning i woke up and was waddling like an old lady, i asked my dr if it was normal. i frantically told him "Hi, i feel like someone kicked me in the crotch with a steel toed boot... is this normal???" (thinking surely, its not.) "oh yes, he says, and it only gets worse." WORSE? WORSE?? WHADAYA MEAN IT GETS WORSE???? HOW COULD THIS POSSIBLY HURT ANY MORE THAN IT ALREADY DOES???  .......

and then it got worse.

that dang doctor was right. another sigh. I have to sit on the edge of the bathtub to put my pants on because it hurts to lift my leg. ARE. YOU. KIDDING. ME. and i thought the hip pain was bad. HAHAHAHA.

ok rant over.

The nursery is coming together... its almost finished, the last touch will be to put her name on the wall (if we can ever decide.) and a few other small touches. But it looks really cute and im EXCITEDDD. the best part is the closet, thanks to my mom. It is extremely organized and looks AWESOME. pictures coming soon!

This Saturday is my baby shower. (so excited) The only thing that would make it better is if i can drink LOTS AND LOTS of wine with everyone else. (one thing im missing at the moment) BUT i figure this one year of sobriety can only be a benefit to my health. Im making up for it in frozen yogurt and donuts.

Besides all this nonsense the first trimester tiredness is coming back and all i want to do is snooze. unfortunately *but at the same time fortunately* im working so much i dont have time for naps. Im going to try to work up to the week or two before my due date, but for now im taking it week by week.

OH one more cool thing. I did this onesie gift exchange on a pregnany forum i participate in online. (its like a chat board for pregnant ladies due in September) pretty cool deal. But anyway, we each got a *secret* person and sent gifts in the mail to eachother. I was really excited to receive this:

cute right??? more clothes to add to our little squash's drawer (oh, since she doesnt have a name im calling her by the veggie/fruit that she is sized with each week. this week its squash.) i promise she wont REALLY be named Eggplant Davis.



Couch Potato.

I cant believe I have been absent from my blog so long (feeling guilty here). Things have been craaazzyyyy lately (but at least I have stayed on top of the belly picture taking!!) Quick recap of what has gone on. Our nursery has made some progress, finally. The closet is organized and pictures are almost all hung. (pictures coming soon) Baby Davis ALMOST has a name, were between two right now. ITS A SECRET :) and shes growing and kicking like crazy. Im pretty sure im growing a mini Mia Hamm in there. My bladder is her favorite place to kick. The biggest news so far happened this last Friday. I was washing my neighbors dog and long story short, I dumbly put the leash around my foot to hold him. BIG MISTAKE, as he took of running. My feet went strait out from under me and I landed right on my side. He proceeded to drag me 5 feet before my foot came loose. I learned my lesson by spending the next 5 hours in labor and delivery. Baby is ok, but one contraction was enough for me to never want to do THAT again. Im on 24-48 hour bed rest. My mild cramps have continued over the last 24 hours but im working hard to keep baby an inside baby... still have 14 weeks to go!! (cant believe how time goes by)

IT'S A GIRL!!

Well you definately didnt hear it here first, but between my work, taking care of skyler after his shoulder surgery, and making death by chocolate brownies, i havent had much time to blog. We found out monday that we are definately expecting a baby GIRL!! WOOOOO HOOOOO!! I am SO excited. Skyler is... also... excited. It took him a couple hours to come around but is adjusting to the idea fairly well. We are now in search of the perfect girl bedding that isnt "too pink" ... and he definately has an opinion. I think we have finally narrowed it down to two.
We made a second attempt at the baby registry creation at babies R us... after a Mcdonalds cup full of captain and sprite he VERY WILLINGLY let me scan some pink items and complete the WHOLE registry. I was REALLY happy to get it done! (so for the record we are registered at Target and Babies R Us) :)
anywho back to the anatomy scan, baby Davis is healthy and growing. Im feeling lots of kicks and rolls in there, and should be felt from the outside here in the next couple of weeks. SO EXCITING! I have only gained 2 pounds, and am under doctors orders to "eat whatever sounds good" to try to put some weight on. HENCE THE DEATH BY CHOCOLATE BROWNIES BAKING RIGHT NOW. They take two hours to set before i can taste... absolutely worth staying up an hour past my bedtime for....
Please excuse me while I devour half the pan. Heres some updated pictures. Baby and the belly. almost 19 weeks... cant believe it!!

here she is!! 18 WEEKS

little baby butt... its a girl!!

Getting there.

I had my 16 week appt yesterday and it went really well. The BEST part of the news is our anatomy scan was scheduled for April 18th at 11:30 am... one and a half more weeks we can say ITS A... girl or boy. !! so excited. Babys heartbeat is going strong at 155 bpm, which the dr says is great. I got the results from my first trimester bloodwork and everything came back normal (MORE YAYS)
Lets talk about cravings.
I was standing in the kitchen last night making waffles and bacon. (My 1 week craving of belgian waffles could not be satisfied by one breakfast so we invested in a waffle iron... smart decision.) I devoured two waffles and 4 slices of bacon and found myself wanting something else. I opened the pantry *as i eye the spaghetti sauce...* "baaaaabe? are you hungry for spaghetti??" whoever hasnt eaten waffles with a side of spaghetti is crazy... its DELICIOUS. Ill add to the list sour pickles (only to be found at harris teeter) as ell as cheeto puff curls and sausage biscuits and gravy. *DROOL* my mouth is literally watering as I type this. They werent joking when "cravings" was added to the list of pregnancy symtoms. it is a SERIOUS matter that has to be addressed as soon they arrive. otherwise you will be waking up at 2 am to pee and thinking about pickles and sausage. *more drool.*
Speaking of waking up at night. Dear lord my hips. I feel like a 100 year old lady. I spent 3-4 nights tossing and turning and waking up in the most awful pain imaginable 8-9 times a night before I drug my large pregnancy pillow back in the bed. Sorry Skyler, (he says it takes up 3/4s of the bed) I cant sleep without it anymore. Thanks baby davis for adding elastin to my joints and giving me hip pain. Problem solved. Skyler can fit on 1/4 of the bed, hes a dude. :)
Thats about all the update for now. Got another belly picture here... 16 weeks 2 days and growing... Ill be reaching for the maternity shirts in another week im sure... half my shirts look like an elementary school student lent me their clothes. WAY. TOO. TIGHT.
1 and a half weeks counting down!!



Update!

Everything has been so non eventful that I havent really written anything... I did go back to my OB for some bloodwork (routine stuff) and they moved my due date AGAIN to Sept. 19. So were back to the 15 (now almost 16 week) mark. THANKS FOR MY WEEK BACK! Nothing much going on in there except a couple (make that 4) baby roll arounds.... so exciting to feel something! Should be another 2 weeks or so before baby can be felt on the outside. We should be finding out around April 18 or so the gender for SURE this time. Our nursery furniture has YET to arrive. sigh. I will NEVER order from jcpenney again. To quote my mother "IM GOING TO WRITE A LETTER!" haha. that'll be the day!
Im FINALLY going to post a belly pic, since theres semi-something to look at now. This is from the FIRST day of week 15. I swear its getting bigger everyday. We had one nice day last week and I tried to squeeze into my cute summer dresses. Ya no... I looked like a pregnant summer slut. Oh well. So here ya go: