2 days overdue

This. Is. Ridiculous. Today I am 2 days past my due date. I guess I always knew it was a possibility but I never really expected this. Whos 100% done being pregnant? this girl right  here. It would be a lot more bearable if I was not having contractions every 10 minutes for the last three days. Every time I feel anything I 100% overanalyze... "what was that?" or "is this IT?" or something of the sorts. I am praying, hoping, crossing fingers that today when I am at my doctors appointment that he will say ITS BABY TIME! and send me across the street to the hospital. But im kinda thinking... big fat chance. I feel like this baby is never coming out. On top of everything else, the dogs must "sense" that something is about to change because I cant even walk 5 feet without one of them clinging to me with a frantic "MOMMY DONT LEAVE ME!" look. Its bringing on odd behavior of wall staring and plant licking. (not me- the dogs) I have 3 major stage-5 clingers (4 if you count the baby who wont get out of my womb) Anyway, our last couple of nights have been filled with loooooooooooooong minutes of waiting (boring) and everytime I go to bed im thinking THIS IS THE NIGHT! and then I wake up the next morning... still pregnant. So GLAD I make such a nice warm home for you baby, but I signed up for 9 months- not 12- im not an elephant. EVICT! EVICT!

 So everyone cross fingers for me, that this girl makes her appearance soon! Until then, stick a fork in me. I. AM. DONE.

40 weeks



38 weeks 4 days...

So 10 days and counting... waiting for this little girl to make her appearance... any day now!! She is already proving to be just like her daddy: 1) stubborn and 2) trying to teach me patience.

I have to say im about to lose it. I pray every night before I go to bed that my water will break. When I wake up in the middle of the night to pee, I silently cross my fingers that I will stand up and feel a gush. but... NOTHING YET. sigh. At this point I feel like I am going to be pregnant forever. Im absolutely sure she has decided to stay in there until she is at least 18. Im glad my womb is a comfy cozy home and all, but this is an official eviction notice, baby, time to get OUT. I suppose it's only fitting to put a picture here:



and a frontal view since it actually LOOKS like a baby belly now.

I am so excited to meet this baby and see her precious face I cant stand it any longer!!! However its comforting to know that she will be here very, very soon. I must say im feeling pretty great. After having a week that I was "so positive" the baby was coming any minute, I have a pretty decent amount of energy, my weight gain has stopped, and im sleeping pretty well, (except for the 3-times-a-night-potty-breaks)

Everything is ready to go, the nursery is completely stocked and is missing just one thing... the baby! The only thing I have left to do is make some dinners to freeze. I bought the tupperware but havent actually made the food, haha, guess its a good thing I have one more week to get it done huh? We also have to install the car seat base (maybe daddy can do that this week) and set up the pack n play in our room, which Im planning on doing as soon as I go into labor. A couple of super cool things I thought I would share.

The Diaper Stash



we are still in limbo between the pampers and the huggies. I guess we will decide which ones we will officially be using once she gets here. But I have been stocking up everytime I get coupons or see an awesome diaper sale. The plan is to exchange the sizes we dont need, etc. Got a pretty good supply there!

Also neato: Her closet.

I spent 3 days washing baby clothes, refolding, and organizing. This is probably the nicest and neatest it will ever look. But can we say prepared??

I officially started my maternity leave last week, but im so bored sitting around waiting for this baby that I have decided to go back to work this weekend, (just for short shifts). After being home for a week I realized how quickly the time passes when im working, and im DYING to go back there. Not to mention its my only hint of a social life at this time. so, anytime now baby, would be great! We are all anticipating your arrival!

A Letter To Little.

Dear Baby,

While daddy and I eagerly await your arrival, there are precious moments I know I am going to miss. Right now, I can be selfish without someone accusing me of being so. I have no way to share you, though I do alert daddy when you are kicking and moving so he can feel you too. However, one day soon, I will no longer feel your kicks, punches, rolls, and hiccups from the inside. I know I will miss this closeness that I have with you, but at the same time I know there will be so many more precious moments that we will share. Even still, I cannot help but think about the things I will miss once you are born.

I will miss the morning wake-up kicks before I get out of bed- its our quiet time together. It makes me wonder if you will love morning cuddle time just like your daddy.

I will miss those soft punches that sometimes cause my leg to stumble- I know you don't mean to cause me to stumble, and you're just saying hello and stretching out.

I will miss rubbing your booty and back when you press it hard against my belly. Or feeling your elbow and foot pressed against my side. I pretend it's you saying "hey mom, here I am."

I will miss your hiccups after I eat something yummy. It's as if you enjoyed the meal as much as I did.

I will miss knowing that I can protect you from anything, safe inside my belly, and I'm the only one that can do that.

I will miss the black and white ultrasound images of you moving around or peacefully sleeping. I know I have pictures to remember these events by, but there is something special about seeing you for the first time, watching you move for the first time, and hearing your heartbeat from the inside. I remember being so amazed seeing you at barely 6 weeks, just a speck on the screen, and then months later when you were fully formed with a round belly and kissable lips. These moments were remarkable and I will neve forget how I felt each time.

I know missing all of these things means that I will have you in my arms, which will be an even better feeling, but I will have to share you, too. Daddy will want to hold you, and there are plenty of people in our lives who will want to love on you too! That's a good thing... but for now, I will enjoy being selfish and continue to cherish our moments together until you decide you're ready to make your big debut. I can't wait to meet you, and kiss your face for the very first time. It's almost your birthday, little one, and its going to be the best day of my life.

Love, Mommy

P.S. Please come out with a nametag as I have no idea what we are naming you.